In 24 years of my life, I had never thought that I would actually write something. Something that I would want anybody, let alone a virtual stranger, to read. After my graduation from university back in 2008, I was absolutely aimless. I did not have a goal. I had no idea what to do with myself. I had a degree in my hand. However, it was useless because my profession’s requirement was a specialist – and I was just a degree holder.
It wasn’t long before this aimlessness… This emptiness in my life started eating at me. I grew restless and irritated at everything. In 2015, due to familial and financial reasons, I took up a job at a start-up as an office administrator. Neither was it something I was good at nor was it something I liked. Halfheartedly, I worked there for almost half a year. The monthly pay consoled me, but the restlessness never left.
I left that job and after a month or so, I was hired at another well-established company. I was relatively happy there. I had a much higher salary, better working hours and a great set of people to work with. As the restlessness ebbed a little, I started believing in this false sense of satisfaction.
But that did not last either. After a few months, this unsettled feeling inside of me grew unbearable. It was constantly telling me there was much more I wanted to do than just working on a payroll without any meaning to it. Incessantly. It was a way to survive and for my family to float over poverty but, still not something I was contented with. And finally, I came across this…
“It’s not how you start, but it’s how you finish.” – Michael Phelps
To this quote, I would like to add the word ‘when’. It shouldn’t matter when and how we started something. There is not an age or manner which could be called ‘auspicious’ or ‘ideal’ to start something or live your dream.
I quote what I told myself, “Even if you fail in the beginning, even if you are poor at what you are doing, it doesn’t matter. You can finish it with a bang. Besides, you have already started. Why stop now? Don’t stop racing just because the first three winners have been declared. Your race is against yourself alone. So, WIN.
“Your journey matters, too. The people you meet, the circumstances you face, what you feel and do are all an integral part of your journey. So, BEGIN your journey and change your life.”
It took me six years to finally take this decision to write. I realised I had started the change in my life since I started thinking about it. I just had to take this first physical step. And so, I decided it was time to stop dilly-dallying about the life I want. It was time to take my future into my own hands and not rely on ‘what ifs’.
AND SO, I WILL. IT’S ALL IN HOW I WILL FINISH… AND NOW I WILL START.